This is a more serious post… I know I don’t get on here much and I only have like one follower, which is exactly why Im posting this. No one will see it. Hopefully. This is kinda a time capsule of sorts for me. That guy right there? His name is Justin Halse. We dated for a month and a half. It was a long distance relationship, yeah. Whatever. It was still just as amazing as a relationship you would have with someone who lived in your city or you went to school with. We live several states apart. But I loved him. Still do. I thought our relationship was great, everything was fine. Until he just stopped testing me one day. Never tested me back. Never called. It was so sudden. I thought he had gotten seriously hurt or something. But about 4 days after the last time we talked, I saw a post on this app I have just to talk to him and all my other long distance friends. It said “tonight was amazing. I love you Sarah :) <3” it broke my heart into a million pieces. I cried all night. That was the day of our last play for theater, so when I started to cry there I played it off as if I was sad the play was over. The worst part was, my best friend didn’t even do anything to comfort me. I messaged him that night telling him we were over. He never replied. He just kept updating his status as if we were nothing. He kept posting things about this Sarah chick. How he’s in love with her. How he wishes she would be his forever. The exact same things he used to say to me. The only bit of interaction we’ve had since then was my birthday. He sent me a message saying happy birthday. I replied. He never did. I cried some more on that day. Everytime I hear about that Sarah girl I cry even more. On our would-have-been-two-month-aversary I cried. I cried more in these three months than I did all last year. But its fine. In his words, “Love is a funny thing.” I didn’t know what he meant when he first said that. Now I know exactly what he means. I wish I could just delete him from my life, like he did to me. But when I got on that app today, I saw something I hadn’t seen before. Right next to that key to his heart gift he sent me on there when we were dating, was a sticker. It was of a boy and a girl embracing. The caption? “I really want to hold you in my arms.” I have no idea when he sent that. But it made me tear up. I can’t get his voice saying that to me out of my head. I miss him. A lot. I wish he was here.